A crazy month.

So I left for Wisconsin on Feb. 29th. It was so so SO hard to say good-bye to Aaron..yes I am a total wimp.
Aaron drove me to the airport at the butt crack of dawn.
I held it together until I got to the security line.
Aaron gave me a hug and realized that his hormone of a wife was sobbing. Sobbing. I don't sob.
Poor Aaron.
He kept saying. "Its okay, I'm going to be fine...Its only two weeks..It will go by fast.."
Then he said, "I'll miss you too."
I seriously considered skipping Wisconsin and following Aaron to the car.
Please don't judge me for being so wimpy. I'm not wimpy about a lot in life, but I'm a HUGE wimp when it comes to Aaron.
I finally detached myself from Aaron and sniffed my way through security. Still crying.
People were starring at me crying and starring at the fact that I looked like I was big enough to give birth on the plane.
By the time I got on my plane I had stopped crying, but I couldn't think about Aaron.
The man sitting next to me was looking at me like I was going to give birth right next to him.
Also, he wasn't wearing shoes...which was odd. I'm pretty sure he was an air marshall. (Just like in Bridesmaids).

Anyway, I got to Wisconsin in one piece.
But I would still cry if I even thought for a half second about Aaron.
My parents picked me up and took me out to eat.
Then we went home so I could be reunited with my dog.
I love my dog...he doesn't really care for me. Its really sad.

Now, I realize that I AM young, but I also look really young.
So no matter where I went in Wisconsin people would look at my belly and then give me a dirty look.
So annoying.
Even though I have a nice sized wedding ring on people didn't seem to care.
So I started talking really loud about the fact that I have a husband and that my baby is due a week AFTER my one year anniversary. So obviously I got married first, even though its no ones business.
I just couldn't stand the dirty looks that my belly was getting.

Just a small FYI...some people get married before they start their families and YES some people get pregnant on purpose and WANT to have children. I hate that pregnancy is no longer seen as a beautiful thing a lot of the time. People just assume that children are a mistake. My child is not a mistake, he is a miracle. Just so everyone knows.

The day after I got to Wisconsin was my baby shower.
Man oh man! Samuel got so SO spoiled. I actually had to go back and add more items to my registries after this shower because I got SO MUCH STUFF!
And it was so much fun.
One of the major highlights of the baby shower was that I got to meet Emily.
She is an angel.
Emily has the same liver disease that I do and she lives in Wisconsin.
We found each other on Facebook.
This was the first time I have met someone MY AGE in person with Biliary Atresia.
I can't explain it.
I have spent my whole life feeling pretty alone because my disease is so so rare.
Doctors can read all they want about Biliary Atresia, but they don't have a clue as to what its like to live with it.
Same goes for the parents of children with Biliary Atresia. I can't imagine watching my child suffer, that MUST be what hell feels like. However, actually suffering from the disease is TOTALLY different.
SO meeting Emily was amazing. I immediately started asking her about all the weird aches and pains that come with our disease. And I just wanted to cry because she understands what its been like to be me. So I have made a new friend for life. I'm really excited to see Emily again and we want our husbands to meet too. They are amazing men that deserve awards, and I'm sure they will enjoy talking to someone who has been through the same thing as them-watching the person they love most suffer.

So THAT was amazing!
It was also amazing to see everyone that came and being able to share the story of how Aaron and I never thought we would have children and how we knew it was time to start our family.
So that was an amazing day, and I'm still working on Thank you cards. I'm lazy and it takes me a while to write those so please be patient. :)

The rest of my trip consisted of hanging out with Megan-who has been one of my very best friends since the 8th grade. She is amazing and loyal and has helped me through a lot growing up.
And my other best friend ELLIE!!!! (I call her Elephant). Ellie has a heart of gold and she and I have always had a great friendship. I miss her a lot and wish she lived closer. She and I could just talk and talk for days and days. She is a loyal, amazing, and beautiful friend.
I am so blessed to have these girls in my life.

Then, I just sort of hung out at the house with my dog and parents. A few days before I left I got to hang out with Nick, Joe, and Joe's beautiful girlfriend Naomi. We had a lot of fun going to get ice cream and it just felt like old times being with them. Naomi is an EXTREMELY talented artist, so much so that my dad wants to hire her to do some art work for him. I loved looking at some of her art work, and I got really jealous because I can only draw a dog and penguin. Thats it...and it looks like a 4 year old did it.

Aaron and I skyped everyday, but we were always interrupted by my dad-who has become the best of friends with Aaron. I would get on skype in the living room and my dad would hear Aaron's voice and come out of wherever he was in the house and say, "Is that Aaron?!?!??"
Eventually I would end up playing with Dodger while my dad and Aaron talked for like an hour. :) I'm glad they love each other.

Finally, I packed up almost all my presents and clothes and headed back to Utah. WITH MY MOM!
I was so so SO SO happy to see Aaron-the best husband in the world!
He told me that he ordered my diaper bag of my dreams and a hooter hider for breast feeding and that it was coming in a week or so.
My husband is the very very best. PLUS the diaper bag was on sale and so was the hooter hider so Aaron got it for an amazing deal. What a smart smart boy! :)

The next morning my totally awesome mom painted baby Samuel's room and helped me organize all of his mountains of stuff. :)
We just spent a good part of the week having a good time hanging out.

Aaron's mom (the best mother-in-law on the planet) came to town on Wednesday! We were so so excited to see her! She is just so sweet and such a light in our lives. I couldn't be more happy that I have her as a mother in law. I always tell people that no matter what Samuel does I know I will have succeeded as a mother if Samuel grows up and loves me as much as Aaron loves his mom. Aaron was so excited all day just to see his mom. Its the cutest thing to watch them together. Aaron just adores his mom, prays for her, hopes for her, and protects her.
We loved having her and we can't wait until she comes back again. :)

Friday night my brother and his wife Kayla and Kayla's mom Wendy came to town!
It was so great to see all of them. I haven't seen Wendy since I got married and I haven't seen my brother or Kayla since November.
I was just bummed that they couldn't stay longer.

SATURDAY-SAINT PATRICKS DAY...
My old room mate and one of my best best friends, Eva threw me a baby shower for my friends out here in Utah. Eva did an amazing job. She just had a little boy in December and she is really busy, but she did an amazing job. :) It was so great to see people I haven't seen in a long long time.
I was very surprised at how many people came, and I couldn't help but feel super loved by people that I know love me. :) And again, Samuel was spoiled rotten.

Aaron's mom spent Saturday night with us while Jeff Kayla Wendy and my mom got to finally spend a little time together. It was a great weekend.

My mom left on Tuesday. And I sobbed again.

So it has been a crazy crazy month.
Today I am 35 weeks along and I can't wait to see my baby boy!
Aaron and I are still working on the nursery but as soon as its done I will post pictures. :)

The doctor said I need to eat more..which is great. So I've been trying to do that but sadly I have no appetite. So its not as much fun as it sounds.

Side note: If you want to eat the most amazing thing in the world..go to Dairy Queen and get a double fudge cookie dough blizzard. It is amazing.
Aaron laughed at me last week when I ate a small one and started crying because it was so good. And then I cried when it was all gone. Really I did.

So this was really long. If you read it all you deserve an award. My next blog post will be a list of things to never say or do to a pregnant woman. Yes it will be hilarious-so stay tuned. :)